Losing myself

Okay so this sounds like I am emotionally changing, but that is not the impetus for this note. I have been working on losing weight. I had set a goal to get down to 125 pounds, a place I have not been since before I was married. I had gotten so mad at myself for getting up to 161 pounds. I blamed everything besides my own habits. While sitting around the house and watching TV, I learned about keeping a journal for the foods one eats and that it works. There were all these people being interviewed and they showed off those notebook journals (screw that - I need something on the internet!). I began using a site I found called Everyday Health. I was intending to prove to my doctor that there was something medically wrong as to why I could not lose weight even though I had been exercising three times a week for two years! Immediately I began to lose weight.

The goal is very close.

This past week I wanted to test myself and my own ability to maintain without keeping a journal. I figured a real challenge would be over spring break when I am in the house - a lot (especially with the weather we've had lately). I eat when I am home. Better stated, I snack (and snack and sneak snacks) when I am home all day. I weighed myself today. I am down one pound!!!! 128.2 pounds. Can I type that again just to admire that number? 128.2 pounds. Yep, loving it!

How did that happen?!? I went out drinking Friday night. I had to have consumed 2000 calories of liquor that night. I have snacked this week, but I was not sneaking them. I forced myself to get on the exercise bike. I also was “driving it like I stole it!” This is a piece of advice I received from a friend. She recently lost her husband and frequently gives profound advice to her married friends…Thank you Kate, I think the additional activities have not only helped in the weight loss but my relationship with my husband. This week has been wonderful – I am more in love with my husband than ever.

I am three pounds away from my goal. When I go back to work next week, I will go back to using the food journal. I think I will continue until I have reached my goal and maintained for a month or so. By then, the habits I've learned since August should be ingrained.

I need to thank my husband for his support. He has never been critical. If I have a bad day or even a bad week, I've received no judgments from him. When I have a good week, he makes me feel even more successful. He has always made me feel sexy and now I am starting to feel it myself.